Be.

Do you get those uncontrollable urges to do something to change the world?
I do too!

Well yesterday it came over me.  Some of you are lucky enough to put action it, but what does it mean for the rest of us?  What does it mean for me on an everyday basis?  How can God use me now?  These questions have plagued me many of times and the answers never seem fully satisfying.  Like overseas missions have become this drug that you crave and can't get enough of. I can't live my life like I did on those missions because there's more responsibly here, more to balance.  So I think of the future, this vague picture of what God is calling me to, but even then, the now isn't satisfied. This recurring conversation in my head never seems to find a solutions so it is all pushed away until it finds its way to the surface again. 

But yesterday was different.  In the process of burying it, I heard  "Be still and know that I am God."  Waves of His heavenly presence rushed over me and I could feel my whole body relax.  I could just be. 

In our culture we're always suppose to be doing something, moving ahead, getting things done and it becomes natural to us.  God has called us to be and to do each in their own timing, but so often I overlook the be.  Just sitting in the presence of God goes against my natural instinct, yet it's where I remember who is Lord, who is in control, how much I should be thankful, how much I am loved, and so much more.  Instead of looking to what can satisfy me, I know Who is more than enough.  Its after being that I am best able to do because my focus isn't on doing but on Him.

So I guess my challenge to myself and to you is to strip everything away and just be in the presence of God. 

Fresh Bread

So I was thinking about how great it is to be reminded that you are thought about.  It's like this instant reminder of how much you are loved.  So I thought I would write a little nugget of encouragement for you to let you know you are loved and thought about.  Now this won't be the only fresh bread I make you, and I don't have the time and energy to make you all bread at the same time, but if you are not in this post it doesn't mean I don't love you or don't think about you, but that God poured in revelation to bake fresh bread for these people today.  Maybe next time He'll give me the batter of revelation for fresh bread for you :)

Holly:  You will always be a beacon of light in darkness.  Your light will shine greatest in the darkness.  You are a haven, a shelter of peace and protection from the darkness that many will be drawn to.  That is why you feel called to the ground level.  Don't underestimate just what your presence filled with the Holy Spirit can do.

Brandon:  You are the rock that draws others.  You feel as though you need to run around to keep things moving, but it's when you stand still that you carry the most weight.  You have been placed on a high mountaintop and can see far off in the distance.  But be wary of erosion, for it will loosen and move a rock from its high place.  Instead build up your mountainous foundation so you can see farther by getting filled with the abundance of God and His perfect Revelation.

Maureen:  What beautiful essence of a tree you are:  fully aware of what gives you your nutrients.  The rains may come down, but you remember that they will eventually make your branches longer to reach more people and your roots deeper in God so you won't be shaken.  The wind may come and blow all your leaves away, but you love the wind as it brings you new birth. The sun shines brightly on you and you find joy as it gets hotter for it not only gives you life but also has refining power.  Because of you wisdom of Heavenly Nutrition, you are an encouragement to others and they are drawn to you.

Lexi:  How far will you have to go to feel content?  To the ends of the earth!  The Father Almighty has stirred this passion, this dissatisfaction in you for a reason, don't shake it off as a humanly trait.  You are a mover, a goer.  As one who has been adopted, you are called to the fatherless and motherless to bring them to the Father.  You are to be the Mother of Many.

Bess:  One who is at the edge of a cliff.  With one great gust of Wind you will tumble over the edge.  Arms wide open, you will fall toward the unknown, because that is who you are.  You fly with the Wind and trust He knows what He's doing.  The wilder the Wind the more thrilling it is for you because it is closer to who God is: far-from-tame.  You will always be called to trust His Wild side.

Kevin J:  You are a lion wrapped in robes of gold.  You carry traits of both God's Kingliness (Righteousness) and His untameable wildness.  They seem like polar opposites and so you feel like there is this constant war within you as one side is always trying to overcome the other.  It's when you can (by the Grace of God) embrace both at the same time will you feel content.

Shannon:  God has entrusted you with a lot more ducks than the rest of us.  He knows that you have this great ability to care for all of them so well  that they hop into a row for you.  As you take such great care of the ones you have and finally get them all lined up, He's ready to give you more.  Your greatest challenge will be not to let worry get in the way of all that God has for you because He has created you to be able to do far more than you can even imagine.  And worry just breeds chaos which mean more work for you to get those ducks in a row.  So keep giving and getting filled with good food and those ducks will keep lining up perfectly for you.

Travis:  Throw the couch aside, walk into the New, and be who you've always wanted to be, but were too afraid to, because God loves you so much He wants to give you that life.

Lizzy:  So there's this dot right in the center of everything that is who God has created you to be.  You've been eying it for some time now, but are afraid that if you step into it you will lose your freedom to make your own choices.  So you've been skirting around it hoping to get close to it, but not close enough to get lost in the depths of God's unknown.  Well, you've pretty much made it all around it now and you still don't feel content.  So step into it and you will be amazed at how much better it is than anything you've ever imagined and you will feel freer than you have ever felt before.
   
Well, if I do anymore baking today, my head might explode.  So I love you all, and be blessed!

God is my Refuge

Last Sunday, Nathan had a revelatory thought about God as our refuge:

He saw God's castle, a fortress well protected with huge stone walls that nothing can breach.  God is asking us to join Him there in safety and peace.  Instead we insist on running around the outside of the castle, still in His presence, but not within His safety so we are continually getting beaten and bruised.  We need to take the action of stepping into His refuge in order to benefit from His protection.

This reminded me of Psalm 27:

The Lord is my light and my salvation-
whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life-
of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked advance against me
to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
Though and army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.

One thing I ask from the Lord,
and I shall seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the
Lord
all the days of me life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
and seek Him in His temple.
For in the day of trouble
He will keep me safe in His dwelling;
He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.
Then my head will be exalted
above the the enemies who surround me;
at His tabernacle I will sacrifice with
shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the Lord.

This is a wonderful promise of God's protection, but it begs a question in my mind.  What do I do to dwell in His house?  What do I need to do to say within the walls of His protection?

Hear my voice when I call Lord,
be merciful to me and answer me.
My heart says of You "Seek His face!"
Your face, Lord, I will seek.
Do not hide your servant away in anger,
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
Though my father and mother forsake me,
the Lord will recieve me.
Teach me your way, Lord,
Lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.

I remain confident of this,
I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord,
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.

I always found this an interesting second half of this psalm since it starts so confident. There is something in the desperation of David in this second half that for the first time ties this whole psalm together for me.  I think that David was given a revelation of God's refuge, but then saw what could happen to Him outside of the fortress.  He knew that in order to be in God's protection he needed to be in the presence of God.  So David is suddenly like "Oh crap, God I need your presence all the time, look at all me enemies, be my help like you've been before, I can't take a chance being apart from You God, please stay with me."  And then at the end, it's like He's reminding himself of what He knows.  "Don't worry I know the nature of God, in His time I will see His goodness here on this earth."

So don't worry, be strong and take heart.  Wait on Him and He will come.  Trust in His fortress, it will not fail.  In His presence you will find peace from your enemies.

Sticky Rain

Recently I woke up with this feeling that God really wanted to tell me something, so I sat in His presence, and this is what unfolded.

As I closed my eyes I was taken into a vision of honey falling down on me like rain. 
I heard His voice say "You know they great thing about honey is that it's sticky."

Not understanding what this meant at all, I looked up verses in the bible dealing with honey and kept coming across "the land flowing with milk and honey."  Upon researching this phrase, I found that honey denotes delight.  After getting more understanding about what was going on, I reentered the vision.

This time I was dancing and laughing with my arms open wide as honey droplets fell on and around me.  That's when Jesus entered the scene and I fell into His embrace comfortable in my role as His bride.  Together we enjoyed the rain as we danced in the Father's delight. Then The worship playing from my computer burst into the vision singing "sons and daughters of the living God."  The Father in His gentle voice simply said " They're your children too."

Revelation flooded in as I understood for the first time why God has placed me in my job. As the Father pours His delight on me, I am able to pass that delight on the little ones I spend my day with.  As the Bride of Christ I love them like my own because they are His.

A Tiny Tidbit

Trusting God is like being thrown in the air by your father as a child.  Your stomach flips and you get the feeling like your going to fall, but you're not worried because your big strong Daddy would never let you fall. Your Destiny is in His hands and it might feel as though your being tossed about, you feel as though you are about to hit the floor at any moment, but Daddy God will always catch you as you let out a giggle of delight in the feeling of His strength. So enjoy the stomach flips as you look forward to the Father's arm surrounding you.